The Undercurrent

why do i have a hard time answering that simple question??? i originally wanted to write something about me so friends can have an idea on what i have become…but as i was about to write (or encode), i got stuck with that question (the title) in mind…telling my name does not quite answer that question either…names are arbitrary and may not have something to do with the real you except that its what is used to call you…so who am i really??? if i were asked that question 10years ago, i could have given a very straightforward answer..but as life grows on you, things are not the same…all the struggles that i survived had molded me into what or who i am now as the rule of nature states "if you can’t adapt, then you will not survive"…but adapting also has its consequences because as you change to survive, you also change your essence…you change who you are, the real you… a very special person once told me to use the eyes of the people around me so i could see who i am or how special i am…but i still can’t see it… i know this doesn’t quite sound like the person you know…but it is me…as to who it is, that i don’t know…maybe you can tell me who i am…

p.s. sorry for the seriousness of this blog…i guess i’m just bored with life that everything i do seems pointless…right now i’m really just "finding pleasure in a meaningless existence" as they say…i am hoping that if i find my old self again, i could view life in a different perspective…in the perspective that i knew of…that i have now lost within me…

after months of creating a friendster blogsite, i’ve finally been able to write here…its not that i didn’t try writing before, it was just that everytime i open this link i get a message that says "url could not be retrieved"…what the hell was that all about… i was inspired to write that time but i got rejected as my "url could not be retrieved"…sheeessshhh!!!! the wonders of technology, and at the same time the pain in the a** everytime something like that happens…i thought of a lot of things to write about…and now i don’t have a single idea in mind…na-writer’s block siguro…

so to my dear friends (that felt weird…maybe cause i use the word dear only in letters)…anyway, to my friends who are reading this blog right now…sorry if i wasted your time.. maybe next time i’ll be inspired (or expired) to write more about life and the world…or whatever comes to my mind…meanwhile, if you wanna know what i have been up to the last few months or years, please check and support my buzzsite http://seriusclownfish.buzznet.com/user..

adios for now…